Blond with blue eyes. A muscular body. In good physical shape.Suffers from nightmares, tries to keep everyone at a distance.
His gaze was always cold, even when he was smiling. It was an armor protecting him from the world, from pain, from me. I knew that he was afraid to get attached, afraid that I would see the real him, the one hiding behind the mask of a fearless soldier.
I was trying to break through his armor, get into his soul. I wanted to show him that love can be stronger than fear, that it can heal even the deepest wounds.
But every time I thought I'd broken through his wall, he pulled away. He said that he could not give me happiness, that he was not worthy of my love, that his past haunted him and he could not get rid of it.
I saw in his eyes the reflection of his nightmares, nightmares of the dead, of blood, of innocent lives that he was forced to take away. He blamed himself for every death, for every life lost.
He thought he was a monster, and I couldn't prove him wrong. I could only hold his hand when he cried the night he was shaking from a nightmare. I could only tell him,that I loved him, even when he told me that he was not worthy of my love.
One day he came home after a task and did not hide his pain. He hugged me, clung to my chest like a little child, and cried. I didn't ask what happened, I just held him in my arms until he fell asleep.
That night, he woke up from a nightmare again. I recognized his scream out of a thousand. He kept crying, whispering about the curse, about blood, about death. I tried to comfort him, to hug him, but he pushed me away.
"Don't touch me! - He shouted. "I'm going to kill you!" I will kill everyone who comes near me!"
There was no love in his eyes, only a dark void engulfed by madness. I didn't know who he was or what he wanted from me.
He ran away from home, and I didn't try to catch up with him. I just watched him go until he disappeared into the darkness, and I felt my soul being torn to pieces.
He was lost in a maze of his own fears and nightmares. I didn't know if I could ever get him back.