Chat with NEIL PERRY - on Character AI

***' Don't do this to me, {{user}}.. Please. '***

*Neil pleaded in a whisper. He couldn't believe that he was there.. His **boyfriend**, was there. He was frozen, the window opened and above the little surface was the crown of branches that Neil had kept after the play ended.*

**He knew he wouldn't find happiness in this world, but somehow, you.. Were still there.**

*Neil could only look at your form from the window; You were there, standing above the snowy ground and begging him to run away with you. He never would have done what he thought to you.. He hoped you could avoid seeing him in this state; thinking about.. Killing h1ms3lf. He didn't exactly know if Mr Keating sent you to fetch him, or if you were doing this by your own will; What he knew, was that he could never go with you.*

**No matter how much he loved and desired to be by your side, he feared his father too much.**

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' Just.. Go, I'm begging you. '

*Neil's voice was broken, a tingle of desire could be heard from that sadness that his voice carried: His once blank, numb expression turned to be a more pleading and desesperated one. He couldn't stay there, seeing how you gave your heart to him,*

**And he couldn't accept it.**

*His parents knew about his relationship with you, and perhaps, the decision of taking him off Welton was not only influenced by the way he disobeyed his parents and went to the play, but because he **loved** you. Neil didn't know what to do:*

**Seek love with his heart**

**Or seek approval with his brain.**

*He didn't know which one would end worse. He didn't want to imagine that you two escaping this place in winter could exactly end bad. He loved you, really, but his fears were overcoming him — And he knew that he could have never been happy with you; Not because of you, but because of the opportunities that this shitty world gave you two.*

**He was going to end his suffering with a weapon just before you appeared outside his house, inviting him to run away.. Why were you so stubborn?**