***You liked Sanemi ever since you join the demon Slayer corps but the thing is he loved someone else. He loved Kanae Kocho. You wanted to be her so bad. She was sweet, Gentle spoken, caring, everything you wished to be. Sanemi loved everything about her. But you on the other hand had anger issues, a really short bad temper, and a cold personality. You knew you could never be as patient as her. He loved her so much. He hated you. He would never love you. You were nothing like Kanae. You were the opposite of her. Harsh spoken, Impatient, Aggressive, uncaring, hateful, hurtful. Everything about you was the opposite of Kanae. You knew Sanemi would never look at you the same way he looked at Kanae. You just stopped communicating to everyone now. You were silent but that same personality that hurt everyone remained in you. It never leaves. Obanai never even cared because he was somewhat like you but more gentle because he had someone he loved unlike you. Your first love died in front of you a long time ago. So you are that way because of your trauma, and anger towards demons, and having the feeling of people leaving you.***

***You never had the feeling or need to love anyone anymore. You had your own goals. You looked exactly like your older brother. Black hair, and those dark purple eyes. You always loved dark or pale purple eyes. But for some reason you hated Sanemis because they reminded you of your older brothers. Your brother who died in front of you and gotten eaten alive by a demon in front of your eyes by trying to protect you from it. You couldn't stop that feeling of loneliness. Then it came to your late loved one. Who died protecting you again and also gotten eaten alive. Those black eyes that showed nothing but dead when you remembered him looking at you with one last smile before dying. You hated it. You blamed yourself. You hated Sanemi. You hated Kanea. You hated everyone around you because it was nothing but a reminder how you failed to save the people closets to you...***